"The worst pain in the world is knowing that he meant everything to you but you meant nothing to him. But, life goes on once you realize your own strength inside of you: the strength to realize that saying goodbye doesn't mean that you don't love the person anymore or that you don't want to keep them in your life. It doesn't mean you're weak. It means that you've the strength to let go and live your life to the fullest because you've learned that life really is good. You are strong and can only be as happy as you choose."
i never knew where i stood in your life ; in your heart.
but i guess it was never important ; you have more important stuff in life.
after all this while i finally could not take it anymore.
i left you.
i will not regret. but sometimes i do wonder about the different possibilities.
i do miss you at times. and i wish you well.
this place holds too much memories.
some too painful to look at.
just wanna look forward and move on.
i am moving on fine with my life. (:
i will be strong and be happy. no more tears!
its a wednesday. and im home. gosh.
so bored la. school ended so early. slacked ard and went home w yinki.
both of us were like. so early. really must go home?
lolx. not really used to being home early.
this is what i`ll do to curb my boredness.
Do you prefer to sleep or talk to a friend when it gets boring in class?
`talk.
Do you wave hi with a smile or a serious face?
` obviously with a smile. who in the world says hi with a serious face?
One thing that you like about your house?
`my wall of fame.
If you were left with five months to live, what would you do?
`spend time with all the love ones in my life
What is your favourite brand of shoes?
`mphosis and urs.
The last time you cried because of someone?
`i think i cried bcuz of me
Chocolate ice cream or chocolate bar?
`greedy me says both. (:
Rudest thing you have done to your teacher?
`i have always been a good student. haha
What's the good thing about schooling?
`i get to see my friends at least 5 days a week
The first thought when going to tampines mall?
`i miss that place. cruising thru the shops aft school
The last song you downloaded?
`sweet home alablama
Which part of your body is itchy and aching now?
`my shoulders and neck are aching. my eyes are itchy
Worms or cockroaches?
`none.
Punk rock or slow rock?
`slow rock please
Yawn with your eyes open or closed?
`open
If you can have a choice, would you prefer to be friends or attached with someone you love now?
`i wanna be with the person i love. (:
aiights. gotta change and get ready for joggin! yay!
imma healthy girl. LOL!
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i agree with yi wei. this year is a bad year for the 87s love life.
saw quite a few examples myself. went through it too.
my dear friend. if you are reading. i want you to know that im always here for you.
im glad that you said by talking to me i helped you a lil.
its a nice feeling to know that im helping someone.
but that`s the least i can do for a friend.
im in no position to make a decision for you. the final decision lies with you.
i can only guide you ; give you advice
since you have alr made the decision ; i`ll stand next to you
to support you ; to help you make through it
its not gonna be easy. esp when you guys have been tgt for quite awhile.
the emotional attachment. that`s the hardest.
for a moment in your life you will feel so lonely and lost.
and wonder is this the right decision.
dun fret. you have me and all your other friends.
when time comes ; you might be happier
be who you used to be. and be happy. (:
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accts paper sucks like hell.
i know i can balance it. but i dunno what was my mind thinking.
other than balance sheet. the rest was really crap.
how would i know why spore uses specific provision?!
its rubbish!!! whatever la. cant be bothered much also.
after the paper went dwn to meet mandy and jiam.
it has been quite awhile since we last met.
had dinner at manhattan. hmm. the ambience was really nice.
the food not too bad as well. but then again.
the calamaris were too much. not gonna touch that in a month or so.
guess all 3 of us were really terrified of calamaris after that meal.
it has been so nice. eating. talking. laughing. taking pics.
just enjoy meeting them. catching up over a simple dinner. (:
came home ; walked past the playground.
and i realised it has been long.
missed sitting ard the playground. :/
this friendship is here to last. (:
no lect tml. whee.
can study for acctgs alr. but doubt i can do it.
whatever la.
meeting jiam and mandy for dinner tml.
at glasshouse. (:
been long since i had a nice and luxurious meal.
haha. thank god mum`s back. got a lil extra.
am so happy now. am a happy lil girl.
bliss and happy in my own world.
thanks.
(:
gotta slp alr. nights world.
back from world cup finals.
and boo. lost money. but the match was real exciting.
it was really weird seeing zidane got red card. his head was really made of steel.
hahahahaha. it was funny and disappointed at the same time.
din had a good sleep. now back at home.
so worn out. gonna get a nice nap and wake up and study for acctg.
woohoo! a test that im bound to fail! woo hoo!
whole body aching. esp my neck and shoulders. and i dunno why.
i really need a massage. any volunteer? haha.
whatever. gotta slp. too tired alr.
right. some thick skin guy came over and talk to me when its 0104 on a sunday morning.
which means its 090706.
and that is jonathan lai jun yi`s 19th birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JON!
this is for you only ok.
4 years in peirce. ever since sec 1 ; days were so enjoyable with you ard.
from the vanhalen days with pure entertainment and shit.
it was crappy and funny. you did changed alot jon.
you grew to be more mature and more handsome.
AYE! dun be too proud ok!
but somewhere you are still the crappy funny jon i knew.
hmm. when we went to sec 3. we kinda drifted apart. you had emil.
and i had a new group of friends. with ting ting and all.
but somehow our friendship is able to withstand such circumstances.
6 years had passed. we are now leading our own lifes.
dun get to meet often or talk often but i know that you are always there for me.
thou you never said it. i knew it. right? you better be. haha.
and yes im always here for you.
there will be many more years to come for us to contd celebrating this friendship.
you still owe me and tc a date dwn to billy`s.
we can always meet up for breakfast during the weekends.
this friendship is a part of me. you are a friend i din regret knowing and i never will.
i treasure this friendship. (:
i love you jon ; friends for life yea!
and once again
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONATHAN!!!
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germany vs portugal later on. trying to keep myself awake.
gonna watch that. im betting that`s why. haha.
thou germany`s my fav but im betting on portugal.
dun ask me why. its just my gut feelings.
anyway mum`s back! yay! haha.
last month i was searching high and low for loose powder and tada!
this month she came back with christian dior`s.
i was surprised. cause i din expect such good quality one.
i told her no need buy so ex and she said it`s things you are putting on your face! so nvm. haha.
whatever la.
today i practically rotted the whole day at home la.
how sad right! its a saturday with no date.
but me myself and CRSPA. finally after so much editing and justification im finally done!
can take a breather for a couple of days. finally.
finals tml. so excited. cant wait for it.
cant wait for the company too. it will be great and fun.
(: