Thursday, September 30, 2004
sighz.. been rottin at home da whole day.. feel so weak.. no energy.. dan always wanna slp.. hmm.. hope its nth serious ar..since my fever had gone down.. wah.. i tell u its damn scary k.. i first time sick until liddat..v long no sick le.. although i always go polyclinic la.. haha.. hmm.. now nt so bad le.. at least im not shiverin and npot feelin cold le.. although sometimes will la.. hmm.. dear accompanied tis afternoon.. he came my hse and brought me to centre and meet my ever dearest free LANers.. well.. hope dat i din miss out alot today fer econs.. tml they are gonna tell me wat ms poh said.. i wasnt feelin well so i went home lor.. dan they also went back.. dear dear accompanied me till i fell asleep dan he went off.. well.. he was so worried la.. last nite i msged him tellin him abt it.. dan he called but i was feelin damn groggy aft dat injection and medicine so i din really tell him wat happen except dat im sick.. hmm..left him awake da whole nite.. he was worryin abt me da whole time.. sorri dear.. thanx fer takin care of me today.. well.. now my tongue is useless.. i can taste nothing.. and i totally have no appetite lor.. haiz.. feel like a "fei ren" now.. hmm.. felt like i wasted a day.. nv study anything.. haiz.. i still feel so weak.. no strength to do anything.. dunno tml wanna go sch not.. haiz.. god.. pls...help me.. im so bored at home.. can do nth except sleep.. finally get some energy to type tis out.. haha..well..i hate it xia..exam cumin dan i still sick untill liddat.. wah.. totally can die xia.. hmm..i so bored!!!hope dat tml mornin i feel beetre dan can go sch fer econs.. i v bored lei.. adn i hav da feelin dat even if i go.. i will still be groggy.. strengthless.. haiz..dan can oso not learn well.. haiz.. im in such a dilemma now..aiya.. hack la.. will see how tml morning..
PRISS threw a coin into the pond @20:34
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im sick. stuck at home. no sch. no econs today. although ltr my dear LANcers will come over tpy and teach me.. haha.. real glad to hav em as my frens xia.. they really damn nice to me xia.. haha.. willin to go out fer me.. so touched.. haha.. anyway.. yah.. im sick.period. haiz.. exam cumin lor.. still sick.. xianz lei.. hav to study econs lei.. haiz.. hope monday im in condition to go sch fer exam ba.. haiz.. xianz xia.. i wan to be well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really wanna get well..
PRISS threw a coin into the pond @13:45
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Tuesday, September 28, 2004
oh my gosh.. i have a pimple!!!!!! can u imagine how bad dat is?! wah.. promos is gettin on my nerve la.. it caused dat lil pimple to come out.. i muz not nt be stress.. i muz relac.. wahaha.. can u imagine its on monday and here i am bloggin? shit!!! im a bad ger.. haha.. but i have been strudyin k.. i got.. dats y it came out.. sighz.. im so stress.. stress=pris.. haha.. k la.. i juz wanna tell u all dat i have a pimple.. haha.. im so sad la.. how? got any way to get it off.. haha..
hay guess wat.. i not goin to sch tml.. haha.. i goin to take mc dan go self study.. haha.. cuz tml is a waste of time if go sch.. dan might as well go study myself.. haiz.. dan tml got da stu0pid talk.. dat makes sch even more unbearable.. imagine go sch fer nth.. waste my time da whole day wen i can study alot of tings..
PRISS threw a coin into the pond @23:53
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Monday, September 27, 2004
hmm.. ya today is my 6th mth anniversary.. meet my dearest aft sch.. well.. first we went fer a dinner followed by a movie.. er.. da jackie chan show lor.. haha.. not too bad la.. daniel wu inside v shuai.. esp wen he wear a suit.. wow!!!!!!! was kinda droolin.. but cant do it till too obvious.. if not da person sitted next to me will get jealous.. haha.. wah.. u know how his body looks like rite.. -slurps- woah.. he really damn hot la.. but.. got a bf like him will be like so insecure.. cuz so handsome..so hot.. he really will stay faithful meh.. fer gers out there w good-lookin bf u better watch out.. u never know wat is goin on in their mind..better watch out.. be safe dan sorry.. haha.. anyway dat movie was nice.. not bad la.. haha..
oh.. daniel tan twisted his back.. he tis careless guy.. now he walk ard w a achin back.. dan he still dun care.. complain to me sae pain.. ask him go rub sae dun wan..urgh!!!!!! qi si wo le.. haiz.. he ar.. dunno wat to say la.. tot i was to enjoyed my day.. but juz now i online bz dan he call.. wah.. obviosly i bz lookin at tings dan never really ans him.. as in got ans la.. but not those long ans.. dan he bei song.. dan we kinda exchanged a few forceful sentences.. dan haiz.. dunno him la.. foreve getin angry at me over such small lil stuff.. eeeeeeeeeeee...so irritatin know..haiz.. but wat to do.. he took my entire heart away.. sighz~
oohh.. u know wat.. tis aftnoon.. dat stupid guy msg me.. tot he was tryin to be nice.. like chat chat liddat.. but its not.. haiz.. turn out to be sth dat totally turns me off.. and it really disgust me la.. its really incorrigible la.. why some guys can stoop till so low ar.. thanx god my dear dear is not liddat if not i will have died.. haha.. sometimes guys never fail to GROSS me out.. some of u deserve to burn in hades.. juz like brandon wong jun yin.. u sux.. look at ur fren mr lien now.. he's doin a better job dan u.. or i would rather say a so much more wonderful.. great job dan u.. u sux completely... haha.. but there are da nicer ones.. like most of my frens and obviously mr daniel tan wei an.. haha..
hmm.. daniel tan wei an.. if u are ever readin tis.. juzwanna let u know i love u alot despite all the fights we have.. and the attitudes u showed me.. im gonna love u fer da rest of my life.. =).. dear.. happy 6th anni.. i have been a happy and fortunate ger fer 6 mths.. =)
PRISS threw a coin into the pond @23:07
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Sunday, September 26, 2004
hmm.. met up w maneka fer lunch dan we went borders to study.. well.. initially tried to read those model essays fer econs.. but da words are so tiny andits super wordy.. read 1 qn dan give up le.. dan i went on w my chinese.. manage to memorise abit.. haha.. felt dat it was great but it wasnt really fruitful la.. but still.. i did manage to study abit.. haha.. maybe partly is bcuz im tired.. and half of the time i juz felt like s,lpin but.. din la.. and another reason is dat my dear maneka had not stop tellin me stuffs.. some are really funny.. haha.. ya.. glad to see dat her life is really not dat bad la..cuz i know she v stress.. haha..
hmm.. supposed to go grandma hse fer dinner aft studyin.. but iwanted to meet him and he oso wanted to meet me..i know it cuz he had been pesterin me to stop studyin and go meet him.. haha.. but i oni 50% wanna meet him.. so.. in da end i wasted $0.45 juz to travel extra to see him.. and in da end u know wat kinda treatment i got? juz 5 mins worth of seein him la.. zhen shi qi si wo le.. wah.. im really damn pissed la.. waste my money and time.. urgh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and he oso like nth wrong liddat..dats da worse la.. wah.. almost felt like killing him den man.. urgh.. haiz.. tml is our 6th mth anni.. i dun tink he will get me anything la.. look at wat he gave me last month la.. wah.. so sad lor.. dun wan giv dan dun giv lor.. if it isnt bcuz its half a year i oso dun feel like buyin anything fer him la.. haiz.. juz wanted to be a good gf ma.. but.. see how la.. he better appreciate it la.. cuz i almost spend all my jia can.. now im kinda broke le.. haiz.. cant waut to work and take my pay.. haha.. dan i can buy tings le..
tis is my to buy list..
1. new watter bottle
2. new school bag
3. stationerys fer new sch yr
4. nice note book/organiser
5. digital cam
6. levis skirt
7. er.. maybe some nice stuff fer myself and my dear.
haha.. really hope my 1 mth plus pay is enuf to pay fer all tis.. haha.. really hope to look fer higher pay job.. im dunno whether can ask von fer da lobang fer dapower ranger ting.. wah.. its damn good la.. da pay.. i work fer at least 4 hrs i can buy the first four items le.. and might still hav $$ left.. haha.. really need to ask her xia.. hmm.. anyway.. i tell u..i really feel so free now wout any body comin out to e and goes "pw......................" "meeting fer........................" wah.. feel so carefree now man.. haha.. hmm.. k la.. i gtg pack bag le.. ppl.. have a great nite..
PRISS threw a coin into the pond @21:23
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hay.. i went town w my dear chiam chiam and roudy aft sch la.. dan we ate so fast la.. was so hungry.. hah..we gorge ourselves w nice smooth chicken rice.. haha.. hungry again le.. haha.. hmmm.. they were supposed to acc me to get my anni present but was ps not long aft.. so sad rite.. dat stupir fat ass.. say tired dan left me and chiam chiam..=/ dan aft dat we walked ard.. so difficult to get him sth lei.. almost wanted to die.. haha.. in the end my dear chiam chiam oso left me alone.. due to her production.. haiz..dan i loitered ard.. tryin to find sth suitable fer him.. dan i dunnno y my dear car popped out in my mind.. so i called her and talked to her.. wah.. really long no see her la..despite those short talks we have on msn..we hardly talk.. haiz.. kinda miss her and all the times we had.. all da crap we said.. and all the tings i can do to her.. haha.. hmm.. so i met her in orchard.. dan we wnet fer dinner and dan i went her hse study.. haha.. i got study k.. priscilla's a good ger.. haha.. yah.. did econs mcq qns.. did some maths..was so frustratin la.. cuz alot dunno how to do.. haha.. gonna ask my dear ying chin or mr lee.. haha.. hope they dun tink dat im stupid and irritatin.. haha.. yah.. anyway.. all i wanted to sae is dat.. had a great time hangin out at her hse.. we really talked crap la.. kinda destressed wen i see her.. cuz i can tease her.. haha.. hmm.. tml im meetin my dear car fer breakfast and dan go study.. hmm.. really mux work hard fer promos ar.. *pris jia you!!!*
PRISS threw a coin into the pond @13:46
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Friday, September 24, 2004
haha.. interestin title? cuz its really wat we did.. haha.. aft sch yc, van, weiting, chiam chiam, xiao bai chi and me went xiao bai chi's hse.. haha.. supposed to have steamboat.. but it was spoilt.. so it was called off.. anyway.. our alternative was to eat her maid's fried rice.. haha.. like so lamerite? anyway its not bad la.. dan 2 other ppl was there.. alvin and justin .. haha.. it was quiet funny la.. i really enjoyed myself lor.. we were laughim like nobody's business aft sch.. even at da bus stop.. on da bus.. wen we were tgt.. we were laughin like crazy.. haha.. really had a whole load of fun.. really played like promos is over.. and its scary la.. haha.. hmm.. we ate and ate and ate.. we oso watched aunties show.. since ying jing said its nice.. haha.. dan aft we go home le.. so i can type my blog fer u to see.. haha.. now my eyes are hurting.. contact lens so DRY!!!! jia lat.. haha.. k la.. today juz liddat la.. update another time k..
oh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! before i go.. i wanna sae sth dats v impt.. cuz mr ng said pw has to be stopped.. and concentrate on our promos.. haha.. wen he said dat HWEE HOON'S FACE CHANGED.. wahahhahahahha.. no need to see her fer at least 3 weeks.. wah.. feel so free.. no burden.. yeah.. pw burdenless.. haha.. k la.. gtg get da lens out.. its irritatin mi.. kk.. tata..
PRISS threw a coin into the pond @22:50
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Thursday, September 23, 2004
well.. went swimmin w my dear round one in the afternoon juz now.. haha.. as usual.. we talked rubbish but had fun.. haha.. hmm.. i dan realised i really need a tan damn badly.. haha.. im so fair now.. compare to wat i was before.. wah.. really wanna go fer intensive tannin aft promos man.. dan will be tan tan.. like beach babe liddat.. wahhahaha.. nice rite.. dan i oso wanna go work aft promos.. dan can earn $$ fer my new sch term.. like go buy all the necessities scuh as a nice bag.. nice watter bottle.. haha.. water bottle is impt as it is an common ting used between the free-LANcers.. haha.. i love my free-lancers.. haha.. hmm.. u know wat.. we r goin our dear guai lan hse tml fer a steamboat.. yum yum rite? *pris salivates* (although its an yao bu de action fer a princess.. but.. cant control yah) hmm.. heard dat aidan and alvin will be there.. juz hope dat tml nth will be awkard la.. haha.. hmm.. i xianzed.. cuz daniel called dan told him im checkin mail.. dan he was like "check so long ar.. muz be alot of guys send u rite" wat the fuck la.. forever guys guys and more guys la.. do u know how irritated i m? y cant he juz trust me alittle bit more.. dan his attitude really sux la.. *URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!* juz feel like bangin the wall now.. u wait a moment.. i go bang now................................ *earth shatterin... walls shakin* kk.. im back.. well.. feel better and pain oso.. tink my forehead is gonna look like my dear alyssa.. haha.. if u haven see her b4.. well.. u hav to really see it.. cuz its a real rare weirdo.. haha.. er.. i take back my words in sayin i look like alyssa now..cuz she's da weirdo and not me.. haha.. k la.. im goin off le.. today got not much to write abt.. i let u know tml k.. abt wat happened at our dear amanda's hse.. haha.. k la..tata fer now..
PRISS threw a coin into the pond @22:57
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Wednesday, September 22, 2004
sighz.. here is me bloggin again.. well well.. u better be prepared.. i will start ramblin on my life again.. haha.. but.. well.. dun really hav
anything more to say alr wat.. haha..
firstly.. i love my darlimg.. and i will always will.. but.. look at myself.. do i deserve such person in da first place? am i really worthy of his love? i really dunno... i had been losin my temper.. at him.. makin him stress.. makin him sad troubled and all stuff... haiz.. i dunno la.. but da thing is like.. im tryin to tell him how i feel.. i wan him to know how i fell.. i want him to know wat im goin thru.. but.. haiz.. dat will oni bring more trouble to him.. make him more stress.. haiz.. am i really a gf dats so bad? i really wonder.. haiz..
secondly... my studies really sucks.. wat can i do? exam is round da corner.. its comin in 13 days.. how can i ever go thru tis? i cant study.. i oso dunno y.. where had all my discipline gone? if i retain.. i will not oni make myself suffer 1 more yr.. i will even bring shame to my family.. not as thou i dunno wat my relatives will say.. i know it too well.. y? y? y is it always me? y cant i juz lead a simple life? y? y? haiz.. all i really wan know is a time to study.. a time where i can really concentrate and study.. and daniel is not really helpin me la.. haiz.. wazzup man.. thirdly.. sch load besides studies is driving me crazy.. such tings are like council and the ultimate PW.. its really wearin me off la.. look at how much time i wasted editin and editin on dat stupid WR.. urgh.. its totally a waste of my time la.. hwee hoon is pissin me off.. can i really know wat had she been doin? other dan findin irrelevant sources?! its reallyy pisses me off la.. forever doin things fer show oni.. wth.. i really cant take it anymore.. i really wonder.. am i doin sth wrong? is my life really destined to be so fucked up? haiz.. i really dunno wat am i doin w my life la.. really need to find some time to tink abt it.. haiz.. 1 whole year pass wout purpose? and how do i feel abt it? it SUCKZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haiz.. dan.. got tis 2 ppl.. forever fightin to get my attention.. cnat they juz let everything remain as it is.. we r frens and we shall remains frens.. im attached.. stop tyrin to say all those tings and make me feel guilty can? i really love my dear dear alot.. i will never do anything to hurt him.. he is really da best ting dat has ever happened to me.. really.. he is irreplacable.. so.. stop tryin to do stuff to impress me.. y u dun wanna spend all tis effort on other gers.. really dun understand.. haiz.. really dunno wats wrong w my life la.. really.. and im like takin it out on ppl ard me.. and i feel so bad.. really need to apologise.. sorry if i was mean on msn.. or.. my attitude was juz unusual.. im really sorri..
last but nor least.. haiz.. juz tink dat everybody in da whole wide world dun care abt me.. well i know.. there is but.. haiz.. some things are hard to say rite? well at least dat's how i feel now.. nobody loves me. .everybody hates me.. sighz.. everybody is doin stuff dat doesnt really care bout my feelings.. or do they really do? well i really wonder.. or m i da one dats so insensitive? haiz.. well.. i shld stop writin alr.. if not i will really sink into depression ar.. haiz..
PRISS threw a coin into the pond @01:08
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Thursday, September 16, 2004
sighz~ guess why am i still online so late? wat other reasons will i have? ya.. its PW!!!!!!! wah.. i edit untill i wanna die le.. its soooooo much la.. sighz!!!!!! im so tired but wat can i do.. rather stay up late dan stay back late tml.. sat got test lei.. yet dat woman sae tml wan us to stay back to do pw.. mi gosh.. din i tell her so many times dat gpf do not need da whole grp to stay and do ma.. sighz!!!!!! see wat she sae tml.. if she pisses me off dan too bad la.. i really cannot tahan la.. tis is so irritatin la.. urgh!!!!!!! every day every break.. every end of lesson she will juz pop up and talk about pw.. its really scarin me la.. she gt no life dan no life la.. why drag me in.. i got nth to do w it lor.. i have a life lor.. kk.. cant go on ventin my frustrations abt pw.. muz talk about other tings.. haha..
well.. din get to see him again.. we planned to meet de.. but turn out he has to go jb.. haiz.. tis is pissin me off la.. k.. fer the first day its work dan nvm.. i can ren.. yesterday din meet.. i kinda pissed alr la.. dan today he ps me again.. by the way yesterday is ps oso lor.. haiz.. wonder where i stand in his life man.. he really love me dat much meh? haiz.. he bought me sth la.. i wonder he buy is it bcuz he's guilty.. haiz.. dunno la.. couldnt care less.. really ma mu le.. haiz.. tml sae meetin me.. ha.. lets see wat happens in the end k.. will tell u de k.. dun worry.. haha.. k la. i gotta slp le..if not tml cant wake up..
PRISS threw a coin into the pond @16:29
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i miss you so.. why din i see you today? it has been fer 2 days.. haiz.. i shld have studied but i cldnt.. i hav been tinkin of you all day long.. really miss u lor.. nv missed u so badly before.. gosh.. i will be goin thru tis again wen u leave fer ns.. but i tell u .. da feelin will be 10 thousand times worst dan tis la.. haiz.. oh dear.. i cant live wout u lor.. u r really so important to me.. i will not know wat to do wout u by my side.. i need you..
today had council meetin.. fer da first time i went and did not leave early.. althou i did it b4 la.. dat time the hse cap ting.. but its different la.. cuz i NEED to be there.. haha.. hmm.. dat fat poo was not there.. so.. i kinda enjoyed da meetin.. haha..y alar.. wout da fat ass.. everything went on so smoothly.. so well.. it was heaven.. her absence let me taste wat council is really like.. and i can see myself givin more and doin more in dat kinda council.. maybe im sturbborn ba.. cuz she dun like wat i do.. dan i dun like her dan purposely wanna go against her.. haha.. ya lar.. i know i notti ger la..but it happens oni once in a blue moon k.. haha..
sighz.. promos are round da corner.. and im really deflated la.. got no hope.. no strength.. no confidence.. no faith at all.. i cant even study well la.. haiz.. i really wonder.. am i the "liao" fer jc lor.. i mean.. im alrite w da lifestyle here.. but look at my results.. 1 look and u can tell dat i totally dun belong here la.. *sobx* i really wonder did i make the wrong choice.. y m i always so indecisive.. if i had make up my mind.. well.. tink i will really be in tp now la.. takin tourism and hospitality.. and i will be enjoyin myself la.. cuz i really love da course.. although it will be tough and textin and all.. but if i like it.. well.. im gonna enjoy it la.. rite? if i get sth i like.. i will never feel dat its work at all.. really lor.. haiz.. made a totally wrong choice.. but since im alr here.. juz try all da way ba.. if promos really cannot make it.. dan well.. we shall see.. )=
hmm.. today is da 15 alr.. well 12 more days to our 6th mths.. well.. seems so long xia.. haha.. i dunno wat to do fer him lei.. hmm.. feel so bad if i write him card again.. wat do u tink i shld do fer him? cuz i really dunno.. i wanna make tings fer him la.. well.. maybe.. i will ask amanda if i can go her hse and ta da.. i will bake cookies fer him..provided dat her hse has all the bakin stuff la.. if dun hav....... well.. i will tink of sth.. u will juz hav to saty tuned and dan i will let u know wen i wanna let u know.. hahaha.. k la.. i gotta go le.. needa study fer my chinese test tml.. xianz!!!!!!!! but wat da do.. haha.. k la.. take care..
PRISS threw a coin into the pond @14:09
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Tuesday, September 14, 2004
haiz.. i got back my econs test today.. im so disappointed.. i never felt so bad b4 la.. wah.. i oso dunno wat got into me.. haiz.. u know dat time i was doin da paper.. i know wat was goin thru my mind.. i know v clearly wat kinda points to write.. butr..omg.. wen i wanna pen it down.. it juz became a blank mind..sighz.. im so sad la.. im so stress la.. i tot aft ms poh guidiance i can improve.. but apparently.. its not the case la.. but why is dat happening? im so depressed.. i juz cant seem to get it rite.. sighz.. if i do tis during promos.. i confirm die la.. no need to see i can juz jolly well retain.. haiz.. im such a loser in studies.. im a bad student..
im a bad councillor as well.. always wanna commit but too lazy.. i mean.. if the council is made up of nicer ppl i will definitely enjoy my council term la.. it will be so fun.. i will give in all my heart and soul.. and if the teachers are nicer.. haha.. council dun hav much nice tch.. esp w fatty poo ass ard.. how can ur life be great in council?! haiz.. it really sux la..
im a bad gerfren as well.. i cant juz giv daniel the amt of attention and time he wants.. i need to study.. i need to stay fer council.. i need to play my roles as a daughter at home as well.. haiz.. dn i like always make him angry liddat.. haiz.. but at least now better.. we haven really quarrel fer a long time le.. eva since tat incident.. haha.. i love my darlin loads.. love him lots lots..
well well.. basically i feel dat im juz a livin piece of shit.. my life is crap.. i cant play the role of anything well.. im a bad student.. bad councillor.. bad daughter.. bad gerfren.. bad fren.. bad human bein.. can hav 1 good reason y i need to live on this earth?! life i skinda meaningless fer me la.. haiz..
PRISS threw a coin into the pond @11:25
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Sunday, September 12, 2004
WAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was at j8 juz now.. well guess wat i was there fer? arh.. atill need to ask? of cuz fer my dear ENERGY!!!!!!!!!! mi gosh!!!!!!!!!! they were all lookin so fine.. so great.. so marvellous.. so wonderful.. so PERFECT!!!!!!!! hahah.. was there w all my frens who are as crazy abt energy as me.. althoug daniel is an exception la.. haha.. but who cares?! well well.. went really bonkers w amanda.. wahahahha.. we screamed.. we jumped.. we were totally so so so high!!!!!!! hahah.. i get to talk to all of them.. as usual.. i juz couldn't find the rite words b4 kunda.. i was stupefied went i saw him.. hmmm... it was totally juz so caught in him la..went he was lookin at me.. OMG!!!!!!! i was so lost in it.. and wen i saw him.. my!!! his eyes are kinda swollen.. tink he is super duper tired.. *heartbreakin* .. hmm... talked to shu wei.. haha.. he's so damn cute.. he's so man.. oh dear!! he's gettin sexier as the day pass.. wahahah.. dan wen nui nai saw my shirt.. he has a dazzed look.. pointin at my shirt.. hahah.. he was so dreamy la.. wahahahah.. and mi gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really love energy to pieces.. they are totally soooooooooooooooooooo cool.. i love them.. forever and ever more.. wahhhahahahha.. cant wait fer them to come the next round.. hmm... they got the most popular group award (silver).. mi gosh!!!!!!!!!!!! did u see them dance?! oh my!!!!!!!! i never want them to stop dancin.. the moves are so sleek and nice.. oni ENERGY can dance it off SO well.. hahah..... mi gosh!!!!!!!!!! kk.. i hafta stop all this.. k..
hmm.. guess wat.. i saw daniel's ex la.. well she is ow alan's gf la..hmm... well.. she is kinda cute la.. but.. aiya.. i dunno la.. in my mind was all questions.. like wat did dan did w her.. hmmm... i actually felt alittle bad.. cuz its me dats why dan broke up w her.. wah..... wen dat flashed across my mind.. i felt like a bitch.. like im a bf stealer or wat.. haiz.. but i know dan really love me alot la.. but.. still.. haiz.. k la.. everything is over now.. i love him.. he love me.. wahahah.. kk.. i gotta go le.. i need to do my homework.. if not monday sure get killed de.. wahahah.. ciao..
PRISS threw a coin into the pond @13:07
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Saturday, September 11, 2004
hmm.. tot i was to be stuck at home fer the whole day as daniel said he has to acc his mum last min.. was pretty upset abt it as we had alr said dat we r goin out.. was rather dejected.. but guess wat.. in the end he called up and say dat we can meet abt 3.. so.. i took my time to get ready and dan met him.. we went town.. shopped alittle.. dan went fer my breakfast cum lunch cum dinner.. haha..aft eatin.. we walked ard and den we went bugis.. well.. so happen dat we bought stuff.. wahahah.. ya.. aft dat i met mummy fer a movie.. we watched rasing helen..not a bad movie..quite nice la.. haha..hmm.. well.. dats all i hafta say.. aiya.. kinda late now..need to get my beauty slp.. cuz tml im meetin ENERGY.. wahahahahahahha.. k la.. see ya..
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PRISS threw a coin into the pond @16:07
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Friday, September 10, 2004
i got nth to say.. or rather i dunno wat to say.. in da mornin went back to sch and did my pw.. stayed all the way up to 2.30 3.. hmm.. dat time i was starving lor.. met daniel aft my lunch..travelled down to my grandma hse and he went to work.. hmmm... dan talked talked abit.. daddy came.. he brought us to have a great dinner at jack's place.. hmm.. afterwhich i watched movie [garfield] with mummy and mei mei.. well.. hmm.. wen we were at jack's place i was lookinout fer qihao.. maybe juz to say a hi.. so long no see him le.. too bad i din get to see him there.. it was ok la.. well.. kinda miss darlin now.. haha.. hmm.. dunno wazzup w me.. or maybe its him.. haiz i dunno la.. recently i m like so dependant on him lor..i dunno..wats happenin to me?y m i so dependant on a guy?! well.. all of a sudden i dun wan him to go ns next yr.. i realise i will miss him like CRAZY!!!i will oni get to see him in the weekends.. haiz..last time i was like .. cant wait fer him to go.. so i can hav alittle more freedom..but dear dear had changed so much le.. really.. now..i juz want him to stay by myside.. i promise i wun take him fer granted.. i really cant imagine my life wout him.. imagine.. no more morning calls.. no more nonsense thrashing w him.. no more playin bomberman w dear dear..no more watching movies wen there's sth new.. no more daniel to be there fer me to lose my temper.. oh gosh!!!!!!!!!!! i dun wanna go on!!!!!!! i dun wan him to go.. i need him in my life.. gosh gosh gosh.... tis cant be happenin.. wait.. i need to get a grip!!!!!!!! kk.. tink im feelin better now.. well.. look at the bright side.. i will still have my pals and i will have 'A' levels to concentrate on.. so my mind wun wander ard so much.. and definitely i wun hav the time to tink too much.. to tink sbt unnecessary stuffs.. hmm..not too bad la.. well well.. 1 piece of gd news dat i had always wanted to say.. but keep forgettin.. well.. my ever best fren will not be leavin fer australia anymore.. haha.. guess GOD figured out dat i cant live wout her in spore.. so he made special plans fer us.. well.. she's now studyin law in pore.. at dunno where.. well.. i will make sure i rmb the next time round.. haha.. seein her so happy sbt it makes me happy as well.. cuz.. my best fren is happy and i still get to see her.. wout much cost.. wahahhaha.. next week onwards we will be goin to study together.. hmm.. how nice rite.. i know.. haha.. i can really set my mind and heart to prepare fer my upcoming promos.. and she can study cuz her sch has alr started..well.. belle.. if u r ever readin tis.. i juz wan u to know dat i really love you alot.. and i really treasure this frenship.. u r one of a kind.. i can never find another fren like you.. u r the best fren any human on earth can ever have.. and im real glad dat the person is me.. wahhahha.. kk.. i gtg le..im tired.. my eyes are practically droopin.. and i cant even see wat im typin.. maybe there's loads of mistakes.. and i cant even see one,.. cuz my eyes are wide shut.. wahahha.. i know dats contradictin.. but who cares.. i wanna go slp le.. nitez.. +hugz+
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PRISS threw a coin into the pond @16:40
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Thursday, September 09, 2004
oh dear.. wats happenin to me? no.. all tis cant happen.. my gosh.. guess wat.. chiz talked to me abt lyon juz now.. althou it wasn't much.. but it still hurt.. i oso dunnno why.. she told me dat she chatted with lyon online juz now.. dan she said lyon asked her out.. to clubing.. tis is no surprise cuz lyon asked to go as well.. he told me dat he asked chiz as well..hmmm... dan i was like not sure if the ting will still be on.. cuz lyon and his gf got sumting happen ma.. dan she was like kinda pesterin me to tell her.. but i din say.. cuz part of me din feel like tellin.. dan part of it is bcuz im not sure if lyon will mind.. if he mind dan im totally DEAD!!!!!!!!! haiz.. u shld know dat guy's character la.. haiz.. im all so troubled now.. hmmm... dan aft dat i went offline ma.. now im back online doin my project stuff.. and guess wat i see? chiz changed her nick to : u can always tell me ur probs.. im always here fer you.. well.. isn't it obvious? haiz.. i dunno la.. wat the hell!!!!!!!!! lyon is so out of my life.. but why am i feelin all this???!!!!!! can anyone tell me? can can can?!!!!!!!!! sighz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! y???????!!!!!!! does first love really lingers forever? no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dun want tat to happen.. gosh.. i dun wish to find out.. love really sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well well.. i gtg now.. daniel is still waitin fer my call..
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PRISS threw a coin into the pond @16:06
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Tuesday, September 07, 2004
yea yea...holidays!!!!!!!!!! yea yea!!!!!!!!! im juz so happi.. dun need to go sch everyday..no need to scare to see dat FAT ASS.. wahahahaha.. im so happy!!!!!!!! although i hav to be good and discipline and study for promos during tis holidays but im juz real glad dat i hav the one week break!!!!!!!!! woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!! im a happy ger... lalalalalalalalla... its so nice to be happy.. shalalalala.. k la.. know im crappy.. but.. its ok.. haha.. hmm... to start of w myfirst day of hols i met daniel for a movie.. we watched ANACONDAS.. WOAH!!!!!!! its scary la..
no wtink of it still giv me the creeps.. ee.. i hate snakes.. can never understand y i wanna go and watch,, dunno wat got into me xia.. haha.. haiz.. tml hafta go back sch for lecture and paper.. xianz.. juz like today.. but its ok.. cuz i still hav da rest FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cant believe im so happy.. can u feel it? wahahah.. kk.. will tell u more bout my hols k..
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PRISS threw a coin into the pond @13:28
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Wednesday, September 01, 2004
sighz~ wat shld i do now? wat am i suppose to feel? do you know lyon msg me today.. he said dat tze chi is cute.. i din know wat i felt wen i saw dat msg.. oh boy.. we were history but y do i still feel something for him? y? why? wHY?WHY?can anybody tell me? haiz.. dan i juz feel abit betrayed by tze chi.. she's my best fren.. but.. haiz.. i dunno la.. is first love really dat hard to forget? haiz.. im happily in love now..finally found someone who really loves me and will appreciate me.. i oso love him.. but.. haiz.. wat's w lyon? i really duno.. wat am i suppose to feel wen i saw dat sms? wat am i suppose to react? i dunno.. i really dunno.. can anyone tell me? can? im really in a loss lor.. who am i suppose to tell bout how i feel? is there really someone who can feel what i m feelin nw? oh dear..this is just gettin on my nerves..my gosh.. i hate my life.. y m i alrite w him havin gfs but y i cant take it wen he say tze chi is cute.. haiz.. |
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PRISS threw a coin into the pond @17:48
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sighz.. wen i heard abt da song by avril lavigne.. my happi ending da first person dat came into my mind was lyon.. haiz..it is how i felt towards lyon.. esp wen we ended.. he was my everything.. he used to be.. he used to be the only 1 dat can bring smile to my face.. but...... he broke my heart.. sighz~ really so much for my happy ending.. tot everything will be able to last.. guess dat time i was too naive.. there's no such ting as tian chang di jiu.. i really miss him now and dan.. those times we had.. it will never be forgotton by me..
