i miss you so.. why din i see you today? it has been fer 2 days.. haiz.. i shld have studied but i cldnt.. i hav been tinkin of you all day long.. really miss u lor.. nv missed u so badly before.. gosh.. i will be goin thru tis again wen u leave fer ns.. but i tell u .. da feelin will be 10 thousand times worst dan tis la.. haiz.. oh dear.. i cant live wout u lor.. u r really so important to me.. i will not know wat to do wout u by my side.. i need you..
today had council meetin.. fer da first time i went and did not leave early.. althou i did it b4 la.. dat time the hse cap ting.. but its different la.. cuz i NEED to be there.. haha.. hmm.. dat fat poo was not there.. so.. i kinda enjoyed da meetin.. haha..y alar.. wout da fat ass.. everything went on so smoothly.. so well.. it was heaven.. her absence let me taste wat council is really like.. and i can see myself givin more and doin more in dat kinda council.. maybe im sturbborn ba.. cuz she dun like wat i do.. dan i dun like her dan purposely wanna go against her.. haha.. ya lar.. i know i notti ger la..but it happens oni once in a blue moon k.. haha..
sighz.. promos are round da corner.. and im really deflated la.. got no hope.. no strength.. no confidence.. no faith at all.. i cant even study well la.. haiz.. i really wonder.. am i the "liao" fer jc lor.. i mean.. im alrite w da lifestyle here.. but look at my results.. 1 look and u can tell dat i totally dun belong here la.. *sobx* i really wonder did i make the wrong choice.. y m i always so indecisive.. if i had make up my mind.. well.. tink i will really be in tp now la.. takin tourism and hospitality.. and i will be enjoyin myself la.. cuz i really love da course.. although it will be tough and textin and all.. but if i like it.. well.. im gonna enjoy it la.. rite? if i get sth i like.. i will never feel dat its work at all.. really lor.. haiz.. made a totally wrong choice.. but since im alr here.. juz try all da way ba.. if promos really cannot make it.. dan well.. we shall see.. )=
hmm.. today is da 15 alr.. well 12 more days to our 6th mths.. well.. seems so long xia.. haha.. i dunno wat to do fer him lei.. hmm.. feel so bad if i write him card again.. wat do u tink i shld do fer him? cuz i really dunno.. i wanna make tings fer him la.. well.. maybe.. i will ask amanda if i can go her hse and ta da.. i will bake cookies fer him..provided dat her hse has all the bakin stuff la.. if dun hav....... well.. i will tink of sth.. u will juz hav to saty tuned and dan i will let u know wen i wanna let u know.. hahaha.. k la.. i gotta go le.. needa study fer my chinese test tml.. xianz!!!!!!!! but wat da do.. haha.. k la.. take care..