sighz.. here is me bloggin again.. well well.. u better be prepared.. i will start ramblin on my life again.. haha.. but.. well.. dun really hav
anything more to say alr wat.. haha..
firstly.. i love my darlimg.. and i will always will.. but.. look at myself.. do i deserve such person in da first place? am i really worthy of his love? i really dunno... i had been losin my temper.. at him.. makin him stress.. makin him sad troubled and all stuff... haiz.. i dunno la.. but da thing is like.. im tryin to tell him how i feel.. i wan him to know how i fell.. i want him to know wat im goin thru.. but.. haiz.. dat will oni bring more trouble to him.. make him more stress.. haiz.. am i really a gf dats so bad? i really wonder.. haiz..
secondly... my studies really sucks.. wat can i do? exam is round da corner.. its comin in 13 days.. how can i ever go thru tis? i cant study.. i oso dunno y.. where had all my discipline gone? if i retain.. i will not oni make myself suffer 1 more yr.. i will even bring shame to my family.. not as thou i dunno wat my relatives will say.. i know it too well.. y? y? y is it always me? y cant i juz lead a simple life? y? y? haiz.. all i really wan know is a time to study.. a time where i can really concentrate and study.. and daniel is not really helpin me la.. haiz.. wazzup man.. thirdly.. sch load besides studies is driving me crazy.. such tings are like council and the ultimate PW.. its really wearin me off la.. look at how much time i wasted editin and editin on dat stupid WR.. urgh.. its totally a waste of my time la.. hwee hoon is pissin me off.. can i really know wat had she been doin? other dan findin irrelevant sources?! its reallyy pisses me off la.. forever doin things fer show oni.. wth.. i really cant take it anymore.. i really wonder.. am i doin sth wrong? is my life really destined to be so fucked up? haiz.. i really dunno wat am i doin w my life la.. really need to find some time to tink abt it.. haiz.. 1 whole year pass wout purpose? and how do i feel abt it? it SUCKZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haiz.. dan.. got tis 2 ppl.. forever fightin to get my attention.. cnat they juz let everything remain as it is.. we r frens and we shall remains frens.. im attached.. stop tyrin to say all those tings and make me feel guilty can? i really love my dear dear alot.. i will never do anything to hurt him.. he is really da best ting dat has ever happened to me.. really.. he is irreplacable.. so.. stop tryin to do stuff to impress me.. y u dun wanna spend all tis effort on other gers.. really dun understand.. haiz.. really dunno wats wrong w my life la.. really.. and im like takin it out on ppl ard me.. and i feel so bad.. really need to apologise.. sorry if i was mean on msn.. or.. my attitude was juz unusual.. im really sorri..
last but nor least.. haiz.. juz tink dat everybody in da whole wide world dun care abt me.. well i know.. there is but.. haiz.. some things are hard to say rite? well at least dat's how i feel now.. nobody loves me. .everybody hates me.. sighz.. everybody is doin stuff dat doesnt really care bout my feelings.. or do they really do? well i really wonder.. or m i da one dats so insensitive? haiz.. well.. i shld stop writin alr.. if not i will really sink into depression ar.. haiz..
