Wednesday, October 20, 2004


well.. today had a call.. da fateful cal.. da depressin call..i had alr tried to keep everythign outta my mind but tat stupid call spoilt everything!!! and i really mean everything!!! ms tan said i muz be mentally prepared to be retained..cuz i failed my maths dan myecons oni an 'ao'pass.. its not adequate fer me to promote la.. i was eatin.. dan da call came..spoilt my appetite la.. but in order not to let my pals worri i continued eatin.. actin normal..but well..haiz.. somehow i manage not to cry..finally k.. i can contol my tears.. up till now.. i still haven cry yet.. i muz be strong.. cannot cry anymore!!! even wen talkin to belle i oso din cry.. is there sth wrong me?! or am i juz too numb alr?! well.. i duno.. my mind is juz a blank..everyting happened ard me is like a daze.. my life is like a daze.. haiz.. well.. cant promote de hua..its fated de lor..wat can i do rite.. well the qn now is whether do i wanna saty on in nyjc or leave to poly or wat.. my dear freeLANcers will all be promotin la..dan im not..even if i retain.. sch life will never be the same alr.. lesson.. breaks..muggin..mornin ass.. toilet breaks..all tis will never be the same alr!!! =( today they were so nice la..went ps with jiam yc van and aly aft sch.. dan they surprised me w dat bottle of sweet dat i really wanted to get la.. cuz i love eatin it ma.. hah.. they were really so nice la.. i was so touched.. my heart was cryin..but my eyes wun..dunno wats wrongw my eyes..tears juz dun seems to be flowin out la.. tis is so not me la.. haiz... wats wrong?! i dunno la..so many tings are runnin thru my mind la.. haiz.. first is my studies.. i wun to promote la.. but if i cant.. wat to do rite.. zhi hao ren ming le.. dan aft dat is my parents..promote de hu..they will not be so troubled la.. i know daddy mummy loves me alot la.. they will let me do watever i want but still it will upsets em de.. dan.. i will feel dat i really throw daddy mummy de face lor.. haiz..dan new year i will dread to go de.. haiz.. dan.. dear dear said dat his klass ppl all get da ns notice le.. they will be goin in on 17 dec.. my gosh..wen i heard dat my heart totally break la..how can i not live w him?! sighz.. my lil baby,, i really cant bear to let him go.. i need him in my life.. haiz.. wat if i start a new sch life wout my freeLANcers.. dan he's not here to giv me encouragement oso.. wah.. my life is really darn fucked up can!!! hate it!!! i hate it!!! i hate myself.. im causin myself so much problems!!! why am i bringin all tis upon myself?! suz la.. :(



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pRyncess pRissy. 071287. emotional stubborn sagittarius. self obsessed.
cant live wout: orange zen neeon ; black3230 ; strawberries chocolates ; tanning ; swimming ; big screen movies ; late nights ; sleepovers ; talking ; a lil booze ; a lil partying ; my gurlos ; my family

for all the joy you brought to my life ; for all those times you stood by me ; you were always there for me ; my world is a better place because of you. i love you guys. <3

can i have it liddat?

*bliss and happiness
*a lil of material needs as well

lemme hear you



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