din really do much today..bought da skirt and shoes dat i had been eyein fer..finally got them!! -smiles- hmm.. walked ard town rather aimlessly la.. actually is no mood to walk ard la..
hmm.. i really wanna know wats goin on in dat mind of his lor.. last nite wen i called him.. it was so weird lor.. i oso dunno why.. he was like tryin to cut me off.. dun wanna tlak to me lor.. he said he's outside eating.. wen he reach hm he will call me.. dat time was abt 11 plus lor.. dan i slept at 4 plys.. he never even called lor.. im so heartbroken lor.. cuz he yet again made an empty promise.. i really dunno wat to do..if i dun talk to him.. he dun reply my msg.. how am i ever goin to ask him out to talk things out?haiz.. i really wonder lor.. haiz.. i really dunno wat to do abt him lor.. i need him in my life.. i really need him lor.. but if he wanna leave i oso cant do anything.. i wun beg him and stuffs lor.. im not dat kinda ger.. if he's gone dan so be it.. da most i will do if cry my heart out.. i will learn to get use to it.. i will slowly learn..some things juz hav to learn thru da hard way..but i wun really wan it la.. cuz i relly love him lor.. even if i cant meet him.. juz a glimpse of himevery single day is enuf to make me smile lor.. but.. i wuld really like to know.. i will be happy to catch a glimpse of him.. or my heart will break at da sight of him.. haiz.. why can he make me so happy and feel like da best in da world yet he can oso make me so sad and heart broken? why?! why?! all i wan is juz more time w u.. i really wanna stay by ur side.. i promise i wun lose my temper at you anymore.. i promise i will be good.. i promise.. i really will.. its a promise.. i never lied to you.. and never will.. how i hope dat u will knnow how much i miss u.. how much i love u.. and how much i need you.. haiz.. how i wish u are here fer me to sms.. fer me to call.. fer me to disturb.. fer me to love.. i wish u are still here to love me.. i will never know wat u are tinkin until u tell me.. dun hint me.. TELL ME!!! everynite i cant help but to hug dat piggy u gave me and cry to slp. and to look at piglet sittin on my bed and feel myheart shatterin to thousands million pieces.. and wat hurts more is to know dat u dun care abt my heart shatterin into pieces and dat u are not here to tell me dat everything is goin to be fine.. haiz..i had always knew that i would look back on my tears and laugh.. but i never knew i would look back at my laughter and cry.
