Monday, November 01, 2004


i dunno wats wrong with me.. i bet there's sth very wrong w me.. i dunno la.. i cant stop tinkin abt the changes i have to face next year.. no longer will there be my dear amanda yc and jiam to be there w me thinkin abt food.. cant imagine eatin wout them.. i wil be darn lonely.. i really hate myself fer not doin well.. if oni i had been a lil more hardworkin.. if i oni i had choose da correct econs qn.. dan i wun be facin all this now.. mylife suckz lor.. totally.. haiz.. i will miss my them like crazy.. nobdy to irritate me during lessons.. nobody to irritate during lessons.. gosh.. i really cant go on.. i really dun wanna tink abt it.. i muz be strong.. i cant cry.. i cant!!! i have to get a grip.. -sighz- i juz have to adjuzt myself to a whole new environment.. wah.. juz wen i get to fit in i have to start tis all over again.. alot of qns are runnin thru my mind mow.. a whole load.. next year wen i start sch..will others look at me adn point fingers sayin "she's da retainee".. da j1'swill mock at me.. they will not even wanna be near me... dan i will really be friendless fer da next whole year..oso dunno yc they all da timetable how..wat if it totally clashes.. and we wun even have any time to meet during sch hours.. wah.. dat will be da end of me.. i will be the "retainee" i will be friendless.. i will be alone.. i will be the outcast.. i will be the laughin stock.. urgh!!! my whole life is so screwwed!!! juz bcuz i din do well.. dats da end of my life le.. im a failure.. im dumb.. im lousy.. i cant even get myself promoted.. im a shame to ppl ard me.. urgh!!! i juz feel bad la.. can? tis is so emotional strainin..

next dat daniel tan is really gettin on my nerve la.. i wonder does he even know wat im sad abt.. i bet he dun lor.. he wld rather be at the chalet and wun even wanna spare an hour or two with me wen i really need him to be there.. althou he will irritate me but with him ard me.. i will feel secure and protected.. but.. he cant even giv me tis.. haiz.. yesterday wen he smsed me he said he would meet me today.. but he din.. so.. wat is tis.. he din know how disappointin dat was la.. i din see him fer days alr la.. since thurs.. am i too much?! all i wan is juz to see him.. to wan him to comfort me.. to hold me.. bthe cant even do it.. and he dun understand y am i so moody.. wat the hell.. wen god created men.. did he forget to giv them brains?! its really gettin on my nerves la.. i dunno wat to say to him lor.. and he keep sayin dat i had changed.. he keep tinkin dat i will leave him.. i will not lor. it really hurts me so to hear those things frm him.. i love him so much..more dan anything in da world.. haiz..i dunwan us to be liddat.. i cant take it.. i can take no more.. i hate myself!!!



PRISS threw a coin into the pond @01:12

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pRyncess pRissy. 071287. emotional stubborn sagittarius. self obsessed.
cant live wout: orange zen neeon ; black3230 ; strawberries chocolates ; tanning ; swimming ; big screen movies ; late nights ; sleepovers ; talking ; a lil booze ; a lil partying ; my gurlos ; my family

for all the joy you brought to my life ; for all those times you stood by me ; you were always there for me ; my world is a better place because of you. i love you guys. <3

can i have it liddat?

*bliss and happiness
*a lil of material needs as well

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