sighz.. why am i in such a stupid stage now? i really dunno.. last nite he msged me.. dan i was really upset la.. he told me dat feelin is no longer dat strong le.. he say it might be due to da lack of communication and da lil meetings we have.. but.. he's so busy.. we dun even have time to talk.. i know i know if he relly want to he will find time fer me de.. but.. can u all stop lettin me know tis.. i dun wanna know.. i really dun wanna know.. i cant lose him.. im sorry if u feel dat im useless and dat im disgracing da female species cuz i have portrayed da image dat i will die wout him.. im really sorry.. but i realy cant do it wout him.. i know it sounds ridiculous.. but somehow somewhere.. dats how i feel rite now.. i really dun wanna go seperate ways frm him.. i really love him alot.. i juz need one more chance.. i will really change.. i will really be good.. i will really treasure him.. why wen i start to wanna treasure him he tell me dat feelin has fade.. why?! why?! can anyone juz tell me dat?! i really hope to know.. i really will do everything to salvage dis relationship.. its too impt to me le.. really.. im willing to do anything fer him.. i really love him loads.. i really wanna thanx my pals.. they are so nice to me la.. like yc.. she was really worried sick la.. she msged me last nite and all..dan today she came to my work place and visit me w lil vannie.. she so worried dat she asked jason to look aft me lor.. well.. dan amanda was oso so worried dat da whole of last nite she was busy msgin me and dan today she even offered to meet me juz to maek sure dat im alrite.. its really so sweet of them rite?! i really never regret havin them as my fren.. and i will never regret dat our paths have crossed and brought us so far.. they are really nice.. thanx GOD..
haiz.. da whole of today really suckz la.. i need my ice-cream now.. i wanna eat da whole big tub now!!! i really wan it now!!! sholud have bought one tub on my way home.. haiz.. dan u know i cant even rest in peace la.. every minute.. every second.. my mind is juz simply flooded w tots of him.. every single tot brings tear to me eyes.. i juz cant bear to let him out of my life.. da whole of last nite i cant even sleep properly la.. da piggies on my bed.. it juz bring back bad memories.. as in it juz simply bring tears to my eyes!!! i really dun wanna lose him.. i really love him loads.. im sorri if i have never sshowed u how much u relly meant to me.. i really need u.. u cant live me now.. i will juz simply collapse.. i juz cant bring myself to imagine.. next year i will be goin to sch knowin dat i wun be able to see my dear freeLANcers during da whole of my lessons.. dan i wun even have my dearest to sms.. gosh.. dats it man.. i really cant tink of it anymore.. mummy is back.. i cant cry.. i cant let her worry.. i muz be strong.. imuz be happy.. i muz be strong.. at least fer da next few days till she leave.. haiz..
