well.. went kbox w tc and myy sis today.. had a whole load of fun over there.. haha.. well.. its da 3rd time i wen there tis mth.. all w different ppl.. so not so bad la.. althou i have myy fair share of fun..i still cant help but tink of him.. almost everything we did there reminds me of him.. juz like tinkin abt da time i was there w freelancers he called me.. pei me talk on da way home.. althou he had to go and do his project.. hmm.. how sweet ar.. but look at now? even a call to say hi oso dun have.. sighz.. i was really tinkin of him every min of da day lor.. he juz cant seem to get out of myy mind.. i oso dunno why every single thing in myy life reminds me of him.. maybe cuz he had bcum part of my life within tis 8 mths.. everything i do can juz be linked to him lor..
haiz..why everybody ard me seems to be so happily in love wen im so out of love?! why? why? why is it me? why muz he be liddat? why? sighz.. why muz god be so unfair to me? i know im complainni again.. i shld be grateful fer all dat u have given to me.. and all dat u will continue to giv.. but sometimes i juz cant help but feel dat why myy life is so filled w set backs? sighz.. god.. sth is not i purposely wanna complain.. but.. i juz cant help it.. why muz u let me go thru such difficult process? if u know dat myy heart will break.. why still let me meet him?! if oni i had appeal and went to jc fer da 1st 3 mths.. dan i wun know him to da extent dat i will have a crush on him.. and god why din u let his heart choose sherry? but choose me instead? why? why? im really wonderin lor.. i know u muz hav certain plans de.. so.. im juz grumblin here lor.. i know tis lesson is to teach me to not treat him fer granted.. i know.. i have learnt myy lesson.. i have.. i had.. GOD.. pls let him come back to me.. pls.. i have never wanted sth so badly frm u before lor.. really.. i have never wanted sth so badly till my heart aches.. and tears went dry.. god.. all i wan is to have him back in my life.. i know its not hard fer u to make dat cum true.. god.. pls.. even if it means takin 10 yrs frm my life span.. im oso willin to do so.. as long as i can have him by my side.. i really dun mind dyin earlier.. i know to myy blog readers.. it may sound ridiculous.. but.. he is really so darn freakin impt to me lor.. sighz.. daniel.. i really miss u badly..
I thought of you today
And today i cried
I thought of how things were
And how things should be
I cried because
I've never looked into your eyes
I've never felt you
Your arms around me
Or tasted you lips upon mine
I cried today because
I've never felt
Your hands touch my body
I cried today
Because i love you and i cried
Mostly because i want you
In my life and close to me
im sorry..im wrong..pls forgive me..