dunno tis is da how many times im rewritin tis today.. dunno wats w me today.. i have been tinkin alot.. and well.. all my close frens are so busy dat i cant even find someone to talk to.. or even meet.. i hate stayin at home!!! i need someone to acc me.. yc is so happily in love.. and we hardly talk these days.. and i dunno why.. im gettin pissed at her.. dun ask me why.. i dun wan to.. we are best fren.. why am i liddat!? why?! dan amanda darlin is at m'sia.. how to get her!? chiam.. as usual. she is dat busy mole.. hee.. guess i will oni see her wen sch reopens ba.. dan belle.. dat stupis woman.. so hard to contact.. oso dunno how.. dan chiz.. busy w sch.. have her own probs.. carol is busy workin recently.. dan maneka is oso busy w sch.. URGH!!! why!? dun anyone can spare me a moment or two!? maybe everybody dun like me.. dats why they are tryin their best to not meet me?! URGH!!! im gg crazy.. i know they loves me.. they are myy bestest pals.. i need someone to keep me sane.. i really do.. you know wat?! i feel like fallin in love again.. so dat i can get out from all tis misery dat dtwa is causin on me.. i know im selfish.. im self-centered.. all tis is happenin cuz fer almost a year.. i have him.. i have him.. and now wout him.. i feel like a useless fool.. haiz..
