hmm.. imright now over at belle hse.. stayin over fer da nite.. it has been so long since i stayed over at her place.. well.. kinda miss all those fun times we used to have.. hee.. i wun stay online fer long.. juz wanna check out who's here and who's not.. finish bloggin and there i go.. *poof* hee.. wanna spend quality time w myy dear belly ma.. hmm.. well.. tis aftnoon carol went down town and pass the stuffs to daniel.. hmm.. i hid in one corner and juz catch a glimpse of him.. hmm.. he dyed his hair.. lookin great.. he smiled.. and myy heart broke.. da moment i catch a glimpse of him i couldnt continue lookin at him.. cuz it hurts so much.. we were so close once.. dan now cant even look at him in da eye and say hi.. u tell me wat is dis all abt la.. haiz.. i was tryin very hard not to let myy tears flow la.. but some how it went out of control fer a lil.. well.. he msged me aft dat.. he said thanx fer da choc. and he told me dat he knew i was there but din step forward.. and hes sorri dat he let me down.. well welll.. i really wonder wat his sms means lor.. asked joshua he said dat it might means dat he hoped dat i stepped forward and said hi to him.. but since he know dat im at dat corner.. and i din go up to him and say hi.. dan why cant he come up to me and say hi.. rite? am i makin makin sense here? haiz.. i dunno lor.. all i want fer myy bday is fer me and him to be tgt again.. really.. dats all i want.. i really miss him lor.. do u know how terrible i felt tis aftnoon? he was so near.. yet so far.. i finally understand wat tos phrase means.. i understand how da person who came out w tis felt exactly.. he is juz right infront of me.. yet i cant go up to him and say hi.. hug him.. hold his hands look into his eyes and feel dat everythign is alright.. why? why? why are things now liddat? why? da more i tink abt it.. da more ridiculous i felt.. why?! why?! daniel.. i know i haven been good.. haven been great.. all im askin now is a chance to prove to you dat i have changed.. i have become a ger dat will put u as myy first piority.. really.. its not dat last time i din.. i did.. but i guess things were not in control.. dats why things are now the way they are now.. im kinda lookin forward fer da dinner on tues.. it doesnt matter if u bought me anything.. cux all i want is you lookin into myy eyes and tell me dat u still love me and dat we can still have da chance to be tgt.. i believe u still have feelings fer me.. it couldnt fade away so fast.. really lor.. pls.. pls tell me dat u still love me.. dat will be da best bday gift i ever get in my whole 17 years.. as long as u still love me.. there will be hope.. all i need is juz dat tiny 0.01% of feelings dan i will work myy way thru it.. really.. all i need is juz one chance.. juz one chance.. even if its juz a trail period of 1 week.. im oso happy no matter wat da outcome is.. cuz at least i tried.. daniel tan.. ever since dat glimpse of u dis aftnoon u have never left myy mind.. im wonderin how u felt aft readin it.. and i wonder how are u now.. u have been dwn w flu.. dan knowin u so well.. u dunno how to take care of urself.. dunno if u have gone to da doc.. dunno if u are takin medicine regularly.. and u left work earlier bcuz u havin headache.. why cant u take car eof urself.. why muz u let mee worry? do u know it hurts me to see dat u r sick and dat u r in pain? pls take care of urself wun u?! i oso dunno wat i can do now.. but it feels good to know dat u are jealous dat im talkin to another guy on da phone.. at least it tells me dat u still care.. =) but.. all tis will be of no use if u tell me dat we cant be tgt again.. u get it? im willin to do all kinda changes fer u.. all i need in myy life now is juz one more chance to prove to you.. really.. daniel.. pls.. i really love you.. and i really miss you.. how i wish i would have gone up to you and said hi this aftnoon.. since its over i shall not ponedr over it.. now all i wan is to get dat wonderful bday gift frm u.. u are da oni one who can determine if im goin to have a great bday or a bad one.. myy fate is in ur hands.. sounds serious? well.. it is serious.. hee.. all i can do now is to wait patiently fer tuesday to come.. sighz.. 3 more days.. soon.. its comin soon.. am i lookin forward to it? or am i dreadin it?! i really dunno.. we shall let nature take its course.. in da meantime.. im crossin myy fingers reall badd.. k.. i gotta go.. if not i will be leavin belle rottin alone.. i shall go rot along w her.. belle.. here i ocme.. hee..
