hmm.. i really give up hope in him le.. really.. but i juz cant get him out from myy mind.. out from myy heart.. i kinda feel numb to da hurt alr.. i will still wait fer da day to find out the answers to myy questions.. haiz.. i really long fer him deep down.. but.. i juz have to face reality.. i really need to heal myy broken heart.. if not i doubt i can love again.. hee..
'Cause I'm broken, when I'm open
And I don't feel like that I'm strong enough
'Cause I'm broken, when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away.
well well.. i really got nth much to say now.. except dat sch is reopenin soon.. and i dread to go sch.. i miss my babies freeLANcers.. i miss spendin time with them.. next week gonna meet up w my darlin belly.. miss her xia.. so long never see her le.. wanna meet her everydya and talk non-stop.. now she move back to jb le.. tink will have even lesser chances to have slp-over at her place.. love slp-overs at her place.. cuz we can talk abt anything.. and we will cook ridiculous food.. hee.. miss da pasta we last cook.. hee.. well.. wout a guy dat used to be so impt in myy life.. i know it will not be da same again.. but.. i have frens dat care.. frens dat love mee.. and frens dat will be there fer me wen i need them.. they are here to help me heal da broken heart dat such a heartless guy had caused.. i refused to call him bastard or jerk.. cuz part of mi heart still belong to him.. and we used to be tgt.. anyway i am still hurt and angry and bitter towards him.. hmm.. i dunno wazzup w me.. these days i keep dreamin of him.. gosh.. is it a sign..is it tryin to tell me sth!? urgh!!! even if i dun wanna tink of youu.. youu still wanna appear in myy dreams..wat youu want.. your presence still lingers here.. and it wun leave me alone!!! since you wanna leave me dan juz leave.. dun keep some of it here.. its painful.. i dun wanna be hurt.. i wanna be happi.. but w your presence around.. i cant.. haiz.. these wounds wun seem to heal.. there is juz too much dat time cannot erase..
