well well. finally am here to update.
yaya. it almost been a week.
i swear im online day aft day.
but i juz dunno wat to write dwn here.
haas. maybe nobody even cares wat gg on w my life.
so wat fer write it dwn here.
rite?! yada yada. watever.
cant really rmb wat i did last week.
knew i went fer interview w wy.
looked fer sher who was permin her hair ;
yj who cut her hair.
aft dat we all had dinner at lor.5 eatting da famous fishball noodle.
haas.
on sat met up w tc.
had a filling lunch at bombers.
we were BLOATED ; and i mean B L O A T E D
i almost rolled my way thru orchard ltr.
lolx.
aft she left fer home.
i waited in town alone fer my precious to end his interview.
slacked in kino ; saw tonnes and tonnes of nice things dat i wanna buy.
but cannot ; muz resist temptation ; need the money for kl more.
tired of standing ard ; went up to orchard library
found a book and i started to sit dwn and read.
i was wondering ' is my phone spoilt? ' or someting liddat.
cuz its alr 8 and honey din call me.
i was rather upset ; cuz kinda wasted my time waitin
wen i cld be doin something else on a saturday night.
tot da library was closin soon ; wanted to finish up the book
crossed my fingers and went up the loan machine.
i know mine card has alr hit da max.
cant borrow anymore unless i pay off the fines.
so i took out daniel's card.
i almost fainted wen the card is available fer use.
i know its bad of me ; but im too desperate.
haas. walked back to my cosy lil spot and contd readin wen it was abt 845
my honey finally called.
i swear if he is still not gonna call i wld have died in da library.
so ya ; half of my sat is wasted WAITING!
im rather pissed.
there aint much we cld do. cant watch movie.
tix are sure to be all sold out ; or left w those irritatin front seats.
in the end he turned up w his ben.
so we went on to meet up with more of his fren
and tada we are stucked w them fer da rest of the night.
yupz they decided to go ktv-ing.
party world was CRAP so we called up other outlets and we are gg to boat quay partyworld.
we dan walked over to heereen to meet up somemore of his frens.
wat can i do abt it!?
yadayada. slacked my time away in partyworld.
reached home abt 3.
dats my sat.
aiights. tis is a super exciting entry. okok. to me it is exciting aiights.
watever. i dun give a damn wat u tink.
im super excited in meetin my god-son! mwahaha.
woke up ; got ready and m on my way to the hospital.
yupz. went dwn to look at my fren and my god-son!
mwahahahhaha.
he is so god damn cute.
i din wish to put him dwn.
he is so tiny!!! oni 2.39 kg.
haha. feel like a toy and he smell damn nice.
he is so freakin cute!! mwhahhahah.
i swear i will go visit him and his mama often.
mwahahhaha.
so diff to tink of a name fer him.
we were all brain dead..
lolx.
anyway went dwn bugis to meet up w grace aft god-son visiting.
mwahahha.
yupz we were starving wen we met. was supposed to meet at 2.
and guess wat time were we at pasta? its 4. yes my watch farkin read FOUR!
haas. so we are and we went to shopped.
din really saw anything i like.
thanx god ; i cant spend money as i like now.
i gotta save!!! haha.
finally get to meet her ; aft gazillion years.
we always say we wanna meet up.
and finally. hahas. tink frm my 'o's to now ba.
lolx. anyway it was a great time spend w her.
took some pictures to commerate tis day.
mwahahha. u can see it ltr. let me finish talkin first.
hahas. i still cant get over da fact dat im somebody's god-ma.
lolx. tis is so exciting. watchin him grow.
buyin all sorta nonsense fer him! and im so gonna bring him sun-tannin.
juz kidding. no harmful uv rays fer my lil darlin.
hmm. i duno why but all of a sudden memories came floodin back.
times we shared ; the ways u loved me
i dunno why. and i dun wanna know why.
all this muz come to a stop. daniel tan juz get out of my life once and fer all will ya!
wen everything is goin well ur stupid one msg caused me to be on a emotion rollercoaster
since you decided to walk out of my life
dun come back. EVER! not even as a fren
like wat chin ; mandy said why wld i wanna be frens w a bastard.
u juz walked out leavin me all alone
torn and battered u din even bother to turn and take a look
now u wanna pretend nothing happen?
juz fark off bastard.
i dun need you. EVER!
grrr. i really need to get him off my head.
i juz feel so guilty dat a tot of him actually pop up of my head.
i really feel so guilty towards my dear.
but i know telling him abt it is super wrong.
like things dat i read why wld he wanna know.
rite. haiz. i dunno la..........
haiz. aint feelin good abt my honey as well.
i juz hate to tink dat i have so much time on hand yet i cant spend a lil more w him.
he is juz so busy ; he dun even have a lil more time fer me
sometimes i really cant help but to wonder
does he really love me as much as he claim?
i dunno. i really dunno.
i juz dunno how to bring up tis matter to him.
i juz dun have the courage to.
sometimes i juz feel that i am nobody to him.
haiz. i know he loves me. i know he does.
but it aint alot. i know things are runnin abt in my mind.
haiz. watever la hur.
well well. last nite i was bored online.
as usual. haas. so i was talkin to brandon.
i know i did treat him the way he dun deserve.
but matters of heart aint no right or wrong.
we explained and apologised and we are stil frens. =)
maybe he was juz jokin or playin ard wen we chat.
he always send me those kiss-winks.
and i will juz pretend as nth.
its obvious dat im attached!!! grr..
watever. but last nite his actions were really weird dat im kinda scared of him.
he suddenly ask me ' you love me ' ; i ignored
he ask me to send him pics ; obviously i din
he said things like im tinkin of the past and yada yada.
i was totally freaked out.
so i juz irritate timothy. haha.
haiz. brandon..... i will always feel dat i owe him something.
watever. im gotta turn in.
if nto tml wy will be angry if im gonna be late.
lolx.
and there goes the pictures.
my precious lil one stickin his tongue out fer da camera.
can u tell dat he is really super tiny?!
super blur pic of him. =)
