right. today`s the third day. i really wonder what is going on
could something happen to him?
but well somebody`s last login to friendster was 24hrs ago
and well he can jolly well login to friendster and cant even msg me?
well. being my stubborn self i wun take the initiative to msg him
but when im all alone you are all over my mind
and im so fed up with myself
once i think abt it ; tears are forcing out
how i wish i could have been born wout tear ducts
i guess i really do need a break from this r.s
like what aggy say maybe it will do us all good
at least to me it will ; i could use this time and think carefully abt this r.s
i know we will not end up tgt one day ; but i cant bear to think the fact that you will be holding some other girls hand telling them how much you love them
sighz. i dunno what to do. i really dunno what to do.
im seriously so tired of all this ; so sick of such things too
maybe i shld have put a stop to all this way before i got myself too deeply involve
i hate to think the fact that i`ll be hurting you ; leaving the man who i really love
but i really cant contd to be happy w the way you are treating me
the way you love someone you love aint the way im accepting
i know i know you will say its work again you need to work
you need the money ; but im not asking you to quit your job and be with me whole day
all i ask is just a call ; a msg will be good too
but i guess all this is just too much fer you

i cant stand being alone cause i will just so break down and cry again.
=(