i am wrestling with myself again
should i let go or hold on?

i guess im repeating myself most of the time
but still i wanna say

i really do miss you. alot.
but i am doing rather well without you by my side
maybe i will be happier alone

from the sms ; i can sense that you want another chance
but should i give you another chance?
what if you really goin to change yet i robbed away the chance fer you to prove it to me?
it has been more than a week ; and i hope that you had some reflection done
and that its worth it to give you another chance fer me to see your changes.
maybe we could try to work this out one last time

i really dunno how.
some told me that we shld be tgt
cause its not easy to find someone you love and the person actually loves you back
i know its true.
but still ; if you`re not happy why force
right? -shrugs-

judging my softhearted nature
i will most prob give this r.s one more try
but who knows. i might change my mind when the time comes.
mon or tues shall be the day. stay tuned.
i wanna celebrate his bday w him ; but i have no idea how
i haven even think of what to get fer his bday
whatever. maybe he alr has plans. plans wout me.
it has always been the case. whatever.