decision had been made. im sorry.
our story has come to an end. i`ve decided to let go.
i din mean to hurt you. but if i stayed on it will oni hurt both of us even more.
feelings has faded. and yes i guess its hard to find it back anymore.
no point staying. honestly i tried so much to think of the happy times to bring back the feelings. but all that came up in my mind are the times when you broke my heart. one time after another. my heart cannot break any further ; its numb alr.
this is how badly hurt i am.

i`ve given you too much chances within this one yr plus.
and yes. i`ve tolerated so much.
when my mum ask me how are we?
why do i feel so wrong to tell her that we`re ok and that im happy?
i feel like im lying to her.
now. when she comes back next month. hw am i suppose to tell her?
tell her that all along i`ve been lying to her ; lying to myself that im happy?
all this while ; i put a smile on my face
tell the whole world that im happy ; but in my heart im not.
do you understand?
simple things i asked ; the reply i get oni breaks my heart.
you wanna know what?
fine i let you know.

things i asked such like if i met with an accident what will you do?
you tell me you have to see if they will allow you to take off.
my gosh. work is more impt than me even when im dying?
you ever wondered how i felt? is this how you will treat the one you love?

another example would be the 2 weeks break we had.
i hoped that you will use the time to reflect on the r.s
why things have to turn out this way.
why am i doing all this. what im feeling.
when i ask you ; you told me you were busy working.
dun even have time to think.
you know how i feel?
I FEEL WORTHLESS TO YOU!

enough is enough. you never made me feel special.
my last straw has finally broken.
this aint all. i could just go on and on and on.
how i always wanted to go to the zoo with you. but you never once said lets go.
fer 15 mths. and we cant even go to the zoo once!
fine. one yr anni. and you did nth to make me feel special.
other than the first month and my bday.
what other things you did to make me feel special?
haiz. whatever la.
im too tired to think anymore.
my mind is whirling ard now.