right now in the lab waiting fer test to start.
totally has no mood to study fer it just now la.
dunno why all of a sudden i think abt you.

felt that im being unfair to you.
all of a sudden everything came crashing dwn to you.

msg`d carol. she said its not being fair to who or unfair to who.
but its being fair to my own feelings.
i have to let go somehow. if not i will nv let it go.
its true. but its so difficult to let go.
im not gonna run back to you. i made the decision and im gonna stick to it.
this im very sure.
somehow everytime you call my thoughts get all jumbled up.
stop doing this to me. will you?
if you want back your stuffs you can just send me a msg and i`ll see what we can do.

am i really that soft hearted? is that really my weakness?
i dunno. after all it has been more than a year. its not easy.
i hate to think of you. tears well up in my eyes.
i want to move on with my life. but somehow something is holding me back.