just finished talking w mum.
she`s definitely a hip one. cause she`s mine.
haha. which mum will call you up and say she wanna bet w you on the match later on?
haha. i love my mum.

anyway. she called up again aft our bets.
and she talked to me abt stuffs. like my love life. lolx.
she is really concern over the fact that me and james are no longer tgt.
she told me she msg`d him and ask him how is he.
well. and he answered saying that he feel that its unfair to him cause he has to work and cant acc me and i want to break up bcuz of that.
up till now he still dun get it. its not bcuz of that.
and yes, mum asked if he still got contact me and stuff.
i told her no. and she told me that if he really cherish this r.s he wun let go so easily.
i agree. judging the response i get aft the breakup ; its quite saddening and heartbreaking.
but still its ok. i`ve moved on. i gotta be strong.
mummy told me quite alot of things and well i agree.

isnt it irritating. when i have finally decided to let go and move on.
something just come and refresh your memory. tear open your wound which is healing.
is this fair to me? no it isnt!
i stepped out of my shadow and walk in the light.
now all of a sudden im in the shadow again. this feeling sucks totally.
its hurting so bad. tears are flowing again.
think im just too weak to be strong.